I am considering donor egg IVF and dislike anonymity

I agree with those of you trying to search for identity of your donors. I myself considered to donate eggs long time ago and wanted to leave my details, and almost looked forward to see someone contacting me later to tell them ‘I thought of you and loved you in some way all those years’…it did not happen, I didn’t pursue this action and continued focusing on my career.Now Im in need of a donnated egg and I DO MISS THIS OPTION of knowing about the donor at least a little (and seeing some features) and having access to her contact details in case my child will crave to know his/her origin.It is not possible in country I live or nearby. Pure anonymity scares me. Strange looking child, potentially deeply unhappy about lack of access to most basis info.I really do not know what to do.TERRIBLE DILEMA. The industry and state administrators decide for us, unjust and unfair.